You Hurt Me and Didn't Care When your exhiliration is turnin' black it's your..that's turn 6/21/01 There ain't no sense to double back It seems.... Move straight ahead and get out the knack how You gotta To be yourself and not in ow You gonna eat an oyster before i'm through There ain't no way to get to you I've spent all of my time on schoolin' you now Breakin' up my heart is what you do ow You Hurt Me and didn't Care You Hurt Me and didn't Care You Hurt Me and didn't Care You Hurt Me and didn't Care I didn't think you could be so cruel and hurt me repeatedly I've got the I guess you'll win again, -- again, again You've got to chase the thrills to be of the pretend She don't pay the bills chasin', payin'///my bills I've lost the time and the mind... Sister Soul (revised 6/6/01) I tracked you down all over town, I smell your scent but you're not around All over hell and into the woods, I need it bad and I've got the goods The way you go is so worth my get, you fill me up like a cigarette You let me know I ain't too done yet, you hear me beg I wanna be your pet I guess it's true, I'll not get over you - Turnin' inside out, it's the best I can do But I can tell by the way you make me smile - I wish we could have had a little while Sister Soul - you hold me now in a world that's true confusion And you take all I've got just to build your grand illusion Sister Soul - you gave me faith, faith that I couldn't love you more And I soar - way up high, where the eagles grace the sky They fall down in their love toward the earth from miles above Where they take a ravished roll and please the heart of Sister Soul I gave you all my charm just like I learned in school You put down the needle when I held out the spool I wanna wrap you up and open you again Keep you in my life until I don't know when You put a change deep in this poor-boy soul A changeling see me change to a hero on a roll A club in the subway to knock the crusty sweet And I'm back into form like a Vegan in heat I got a hold of a bad case of fear I see the saucers, 'cos they're already here I ain't got no problems, living in this fog I wish you could see I can be your dog Sister Soul - I told you how, how I wasted all my precious time And it's true, until you, I never knew, anything so sublime Sister Soul - you gave me life, life that I couldn't live before And even as you fade away, I've got you more and more *******************************12/6/01 This ain't one of those kind of songs That's gonna cure my ills or right my wrongs But if in the end I can feel my tears I really don't care if anyone hears I couldn't say how selfish I was I couldn't give but took on love I left the cold bruise of this heartache All over the ruins left within my wake On too many others I have rained down too Too cold for their comfort, but (though) I always knew Too little gets too much when you're talkin' in two's I know it's always been somethin' (that) I just don't do And it's really just somethin' that I can't do It's never been easy for me to say The things I'm gonna say today To stand up straight with the truth inside **********************12/6/01 You took the muscles right outta my joints You gave me blisters points You made it clear, it's not that i'm near You're only pleasure just ain't around here That gives you near I thought I knew the extent of your deception I thought you'd run back here for protection But you didn't care, didn't bat one eye You didn't feed me, let my pet snake die My life's in hock from the crap you put me through --- the girls had every right to be excited invited So are the best years all behind me fears find me She picks me bread and bones She's just like a vulture She's so damn hard Like a whore to culture She got dirty fingernails... -- I remember old dusty roads Steel blue skies over dirt so gold All these days... Just as quick as he was here He disappeared He disappeared But the trick is to stay near (dear, ) And reappear (even) long after you are gone He was stuck behind Stuck so Long Stuck so wrong - hard with all Those needles and pins Mr. Insignificant.... -- Don't tell me what I want to hear I'd rather hear the truth You've got the look of....... I think you've seen the proof I'm at the end of a losing trail Seems there's no way to choose Once again, I've returned to fail I'm know I've paid my dues When love became a mountain I found couldn't climb Now it seems i've just fallen In thru this heartache of my mind ********************************************************* 12/8/01 The Ballad of Tiffany They called her Tiffany Lxxxhips such passion in two lips ******************************************************** Now listen, this is how it was I'm gonna tell you just because I like You I like you in my Heart close to me I'm tellin you this 'cos I like you And I couldn't bare, if you weren't there You know you are the biggest part of me -- She thought that cool was spelled with a ''k'' She caught this fool - and held him that way She never saw, it was all behind the eyes The strangest things will happen in the most ordinary of times When men can't see the battle for the lines Diminishing returns I've got a part that always burns Diminishing returns But my heart, it never learns Breakin' Silence Carnage of You He learned the ropes, now he's callin' the shots My first official enemy Goin' on the run ain't good for the resume When clean cut days get tossed in a whirlaway You've got the beginnings of much, even a better day Keep on riding your winnings and get on a roll away...... Feast your eyes on all the pride and glory Striped lies, the truth in story..... How does that fit into the investigation --- Digital Love I got a flyin' over me from above Digital love I'll send my signals to you Are my feelings getting through There's really nothing that I can do But, I'll send my signals to you I'll send my signals to you Over and under, we don't care how , we're takin' it now --- I'm supposed to be doing something But I don't know what to do I ain't got no magic pumpkin But I think i'll see it through You know I've had a lot of troubles And I nearly bought the farm But I swam/jumped/broke thru a sea of rubble I had eloquence and charm It was so much harder, to do it right everyday I earned my turn to live and learn and put in all the way What more can I say? I went as far as it could take me when I came up to you I'm Still Here Everytime I see - Something good inside I'm hopin' and i'm prayin' you won't go back to hide An' everynight I feel - Somehow - touched Well how in the hell did I ever get to love (you) so much I just want it right, I refuse to change There's a 1000 things i'm doing that I can't explain Too late to reform, this is who I am And I've got to right myself before i'll understand (An, Why..) I'm still here - I'm just like before But no one comes to love me (no - no, not) anymore It's just me - I'm still the same No one's dreamin' hearts or taking any names I'm still here - I want you to know I'm still here - Didn't want you to go Tell me everything before you disappear Is every move you're makin' all because I'm still here..... ******************************************************** I Hate to Stay Inline I've been put through all the rings and hoops and so many things that I never knew I guess it's maybe 'cos I just deserved it......... But, I don't know - I am their victim now I'm standing here so patiently about to lose my mind somehow Anyhow, I guess it's maybe 'cos I deserved it...... I hate to stay in lines I hate, I hate - to stay in lines I hate, I hate - to stay in lines I hate to stay inline Sometimes, you've got to hold on tight (through) To Hell and back again you might You best know just when in life you have been served it.......... You can't stay down and just let them all Have their tramplin' cattle call This less circus would mean much more had I preserved it......... I hate to stay in lines I hate, I hate - to stay in lines I hate, I hate - to stay in lines I hate to stay inline They can't take all that time They can't take all that time I check in at checkout time Oh, how I hate to wait inline, inline, inline, in line....... ----------------------------------------- I don't miss too much now I guess, but just the obvious And sometimes I'm just a mindless cog, in training in oblivious To all this vast magnificance Of what we call our own But I don't wanna take no shit This is the the here and now of where I is of all my peace and home........... ************************************************************************ 3/25/03 I went looking inside and I couldn't see out Brightness grays into contrasts of doubt and I can't seem to say what I want to relate About this now, I can't concentrate So let's move on like a sinking sea From Beneath the flames you can believe There is no more pain and no more tears Just a harder rain that no one hears It could be said of me,